Quiet Song

I want to live again without a screen
I want to write in a notebook
Instead of a phone
I want to curl up with a book
Not with social media
I want to look out a window
Not a screen
I want my attention steady, unfolding
Flowing and deep
Not flat, broken, and thin
As thin as this screen
I want my attention, my focus
As deep as the horizon
Nature, animals, flickering sunlight
The silence in the morning
A silence that makes you feel it
That makes you feel the distant fading hills
The silence that makes you hear it
How broadly life stretches beyond you
You feel part of it and then
Overwhelmed
With loneliness
Because it’s been so long and you feel so far removed
And you can never get close enough
And everything
The thoughts, people, stress, business, entertainment and distraction
It’s all gone
And all you have is this moment
That fills you up
And you love it so much
That you miss it
Because you know you can never have what you truly love
And you feel every ounce that you can feel
Is never enough
And you feel this constant yearning to return to truth and existing
A state of mind
A state of reverence
A state of awareness
That we are mostly blind to see
We see so little
Of the connecting strings between the masses of dots
Their impact on the whole, on the web of reality
Life, death, beauty, love, wind, light, water, seasons, trees, ancient traditions, temples
The weight of history
The pressure and pulse of the present
The pull and tug of the future
Constantly and subtly trying to shift its weight
Feeling life’s movement through time
A dance
But also a quiet song
That weeps with love
A lonely sweet kindness

Your Space In This Place

Play on, the world is yours to experience
Feel, see, do, rest
Cuddle up in a warm blanket
Relax in the sun
Walk around for a bit
Make sure you are having fun

Simplicity is bliss
There’s nothing you need to do
Move with an eye for exploration
Let your senses awaken
Gravitate toward joy and novelty
Let your body and spirit live honestly
Find your space in this place
At a leisurely pace
Your life has always just begun
Your life is there
When you’re ready to serenely hum

Jumping Ship

Hesitating the moon shivers and shakes
As I watch it changing shape
Undertaking a crooked path
Somewhere there’s a road to take

The signs point straight, behind I see years of my life
A life defined but something feels not right

Time to make a discovery
A lunar eclipse of my old story
I don’t need this rigidity
It’s up to me

Never more will I try
To battle the truth inside
Never more will I hide
My scribbles outside these lines

I can’t breathe
So give me mystery
I’m blown with the sand
I’ll breathe the blue sea that’s a part of me

Don’t give up, be smart and strong
But who am I kidding
Learning to fly while scared of heights
When I should be swimming

Expectation left on the shore
Life again is an open door
Jumping ship, lose my grip, feel my heart skip

Never more will I try
To hold on to my tattered pride
Never more will I hide
This unexpected ride

I am free
Free to explore
I’m blown with the sand

Instead of flying I dive deep into the sea
Here I know my element, not fighting what I can’t be
It’s a world of glowing monsters and haunted boats
But I’m not scared of those
This is where my blood flows

Never more will I try
To hope for something I can’t change
Never more will I hide
Letting go of the reins

I am free
In the deep I’ll be
I’m blown with the sand
I’ll breathe the blue sea that’s a part of me